My Reminders

It's now 7dp5dt...my transfer was exactly one week ago today. My blood test is not until Thursday. I am too emotionally fragile to test early. And I am starting to climb the walls. As much as it's torture to wait, the "I'm sorry, but you are not pregnant" phone call is much, much worse.

I need a plan. A written down, count-your-blessings, words-of-encouragement, next-action-item plan for if this transfer didn't work. Not so much to save me from the pits of despair -- I'm quite sure I'll go there plan or no plan -- but so that I remember what it felt like Before. Before I knew for sure.

For the record, I really, Really, REALLY, REALLY hope it worked!!!!!

but just in case.

Count My Blessings...

My perfect daughter,loving husband, and 3 elderly cats love me unconditionally and will always be my family. I have a family. And they are all that I need.

My friends, co-workers, and extended family love me also. They will continue to love me despite my flaws, including infertility. They will always encourage and respect my decisions.

I have lots to look forward to in the coming months -- Jenna's fall activities, first grade(!), new environment at work, cooler weather and changing seasons, trips to the land, and a renewed energy for thinking about house plans.

My life is wonderful just the way it is.

Words of Encouragement...

I did absolutely, positively, without question everything in my power to make FET work. Everything went perfectly and the outcome is not within my control.

It is painful, but I will be okay. My family will be okay.

We can try again if/when we feel strong enough. We have 8 embryos left. We decided to accept all 10 just for this purpose.


Next Action Item...

Acupuncture
Sex with Husband -- it's been far too long!
Allow for Healing Time
Plan a Fall Trip
Jenna's 6th Birthday Party!!

Oh, and as a last resort, I have some Valium left over :)